Tomorrow will be the last workout of this session of boot camp. On Friday, I will be weighed, measured and timed on my mile run. I have not checked the scale since the second week, nor have I checked my measurements. Although my ultimate goal is to lose weight, I am trying to focus on getting stronger and breaking through my many fitness mental blocks.
No matter what the number on the scale says, I’m happy with my progress. The first week back to boot camp was brutal. I had a hard time keeping up. I said “I can’t” a lot and sometimes flat our refused to do things that I thought were too difficult.
I’ve stopped saying “I can’t” and started saying “I’ll try.” And I do try. I have been pushing myself and doing things I didn’t think I was capable of. It feels good. I feel good.
I’ll share my results here on Friday. If I lost weight/inches, I’ll be happy because weight loss is good! And if I didn’t lose weight, I’ll still be happy, proud even.
Even if I’ve not shed pounds, I’ve shed shame and self doubt and gained confidence in myself. I’m stronger both physically and mentally.
That’s success in my book.