I’m tired as hell, but I still woke up with a spring in my step and a smile on my face because, it’s Tuesday and you know what that means, right?
Oprah and Gayle’s Big Adventure! That’s what.
I’m not even joking a little bit when I tell you that Tuesdays have become the greatest day of the week because of their sweet lil’ road trip. Let there be no confusion, I am still not a “fan” of tom cruise, infact, this road trip has made me dislike her even more, but Gayle, on the other hand.
Lord have mercy, I love me some Gayle.
She’s funny, carefree, she doesn’t take herself too seriously and the thing that I love the most about her? She calls tom cruise out on her shit. (Like when they got in the fight about the Paul Simon song and she was all “you’re just mad because I don’t get it the way you get it and you want everyone to think like you.” Or something really similar to that. OH SNAPS, G.)
[small voice]I want to be Gayle’s friend and go to step class with her.[/small voice]
Speaking of “getting called out”…
I was recently called out for not answering my emails. (IN A VERY NICE , NOT AT ALL MEAN WAY.) It’s something that I’ve been feeling guilty about FOR MONTHS and when I read that, I felt a)like an ass b)relieved that someone finally said it “outloud”. Because I needed to hear it.
Here’s the thing. (Translation: Lame excuses.)
I get incredibly personal, touching emails. Emails in which people tell me how they can relate to my struggles with depression, with my weight, with my body image issues. I am amazed at how open and honest people are in their emails to me. I also get a lot of straight forward “cut the crap and deal with life” emails. Some of them aren’t nice, but I still take in what the person said by weeding out the “asshole-ness” and focusing on the message. I’ve learned a great deal about myself through each one of these emails, one of those things being answering emails is overwhelming to me.
Doesn’t that make you want to punch me where babies come out? I mean, come on! It’s just email! But, sometimes, I don’t know what to say, so I save the emails with every intention of answering them later, when I can find the right words. But then, the emails pile up and before you know it OH MY GOD! 2,000 emails and AHHHHH! EVERYONE MUST HATE ME.
(Remember, I am Perpetual Overreactor.)
After being “called out”, I decided I’d try to get a handle on the emails by deleting old, already answered ones and trying to catch up on the ones that I need to respond to.
(And that’s just one of my accounts, the one where most of my personal email goes has over 800 sitting in the inbox. It’s not so much that I get a ton of email as it is that there are emails sitting there from 2005.)
I’ve created a new email account and I’m going to start over. A fresh start, if you will.
(Yes, I just said I’m giving my email a fresh start.)
(I know. I am a jackass.)
I am so sorry if you took the time to write to me and I never did respond. I truly am. (Part of me cringes as I type that, because, AS IF YOU CARED THAT MUCH that I didn’t write back. Get over myself! I know! But, at the same time, I know how it feels when you take the time to write to someone who you can relate to and they ignore you. It sucks and you kinda hate them because DO THEY THINK THEY ARE TOO GOOD TO ANSWER YOUR EMAIL?)
I can not believe that I just wrote an entire post about email. But, hey, at least I wrote about something.