My family has decided that my daughter is “A Spoiled Brat.”
She’s attached to me. Very attached to me. So attached to me, that she cries when anyone else holds her.
I have quite a few more pictures like that. Gabby, in someone elses arms, crying.
So everyone’s all “She’s spoiled!” “What a brat!” “She’s TOO attached to you!”
One part of me, most likely the mentally ill/emotionally unstable part of me, wants to stand up and shout. “Of course she’s attached to me! I’m home with her all day long! And at least she loves me unconditionally and LOVES TO BE AROUND ME, unlike everyone else in the fucking world!”
Another part of me is frustrated and hurt by it all. I can’t help it if she’s attached to me. What am I supposed to do? Lock her in her room alone all day so she becomes unattached? WHAT?
“You need to leave her more and go out and do things without her”
The girl won’t take a bottle and GOD FREAKING FORBID that my mother or my husband actually deal with her crying for a little while without acting like the world is come to an end. Everyone wants to make their comments, but no one wants to help me when I ask for it.
So I don’t ask. I just stay home with my daughter and I take care of her, and I love her the way a mama is supposed to take care of and love her baby.
What the hell do people want from me? I’m raising this girl the best way I know how. And in case people have forgotten, I’ve raised two wonderfully, almost totally perfect boys. I think I know what I’m doing.
It makes me so mad and yeah, it makes me cry too, because, do people think I WANT it this way? I’d love to be able to plan a night out with friends without having a time limit because Tony can’t deal with Gabby crying for me.
I’d also love to tell people to suck it.
Long and hard, man. Long.and.hard.