I never imagined I would love her as much as I do. And she loves me right back. When she smiles at me like that, it takes my breath away and will bring tears to my eyes.
I went to see my mom this morning. She hugged me, which is something she never does, and she said “Happy birthday, mija, I love you.” She told me she was thinking about me this morning, how 33 years ago she gave birth to me, while my dad was drunk (I KNOW, my dad, THE PREACHER!) She told me she loved me so much, the same way I love my Gabby.
I never thought of my mother loving me this way. We’ve had so many problems in our relationship, there’s been so much negativity. I’ve never thought she likes me much. But when she said that to me today, I realised that there was a time when our relationship was beautiful. Before life got complicated she loved me more than anything. I was everything to her, I was her first little baby girl. Now, as I hold my daughter, I think of my momma holding me, kissing me and just LOVING me the way I love my daughter.
And it makes me happy. Happy to know there was a time in our lives were we just loved each other. Where she was my momma and I was her little girl and nothing else mattered.
Thank you for the birthday wishes, and THANK YOU TO THE BEST FRIEND a girl could have for thinking of me and reminding everyone that I’m an OLD HAG! I love you, ma’melly!