Will she love me the most?

I can’t stop myself from obsessing about my little baby.
I wonder when she’ll be born, how much she’ll weigh, how long she’ll be. What will she look like? Will she have lots of hair? Will she be bald?
I wonder what kind of personality she’ll have. Will she cry all the time? Will she be a quiet baby? Will she be fussy or content? Will she be up all night and sleep all day?
How will I feel towards her once she’s here?
I also wonder how I’ll do after she’s born. Is my doctor right to worry about my postpartum state of mind? Will I slip into a deep depression like everyone is worried I will? Or will this baby bring me so much joy that I’ll be happier than I’ve ever been? This scares me, I don’t ever want to feel like I did when I went through my depression, but I have a feeling that I won’t go there again. I’ve been off of my medication since I found out I was pregnant, and there were a few bad days, but I feel happier than ever. I’ll just have to wait and see.
I also wonder what my husband will be like with a little girl. I can’t wait to see him hold her. I can’t wait to see the smile she’ll bring to his face. He never thought he’d have a little girl and I found out that he’s always secretly wanted one. I daydream of the happiness it will bring him to finally see and hold his daughter.
Six more weeks and some of my questions will be answered. I can’t wait.

6 thoughts on “Will she love me the most?

  1. Chelle

    Try not to worry so much (I know that’s easier said than done). That baby will bring you tremendous joy, lack of sleep yes, but lots of joy. I hope you don’t get postpartum depression, but if it even starts a little, your doctors, you and your family all have a heads up so you can get help right away if you need it. But you seem so happy now, enjoy it. Ooooooo! A brand new little person, how exciting!!!

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  2. melly

    Look, there will be no slipping into depression. If you start to feel that coming on, I’ll just get on a plane and before you know it, I’ll be there, miming.

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  3. Rori

    I am sure she will be absolutely what you need.
    I am betting she will have hair.
    I am betting she will have a sweet disposition.
    As for your depression, just stay in touch with your doctor and don’t feel bad if it happens. It is not your fault.

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  4. Stacey

    I’ll be wondering what the hell I’m supposed to do with her.
    I have a sneaking suspicion I’ll just stare at my kid when she first comes home, utterly confused. ;)

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  5. Andy

    Stacey,
    Don’t worry; your baby will let you know it in a most vocal fashion.
    I’ve heard said, “Babies cry to make sure they get what they need, and gurgle so sweetly to make sure you don’t kill ‘em” :-)
    Yvonne,
    I don’t see how you could slip into depression with once the most beautiful Gabrielle arrives :-)

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